14 November 2018. Wednesday
The most treasurable day of my life till date. Not a children’s day. Its my Baby’s day
I am eager for a USG scan. Hoping all is fine with the Baby. Last week scan showed no fetal pole (read here). So my next scan was scheduled on Friday 16 Nov. But, Then I also had little bit of spotting (read here) last sunday. I am just praying everything is fine. nothing else I want. Just I want my Baby you to fine.
I had an appointment book but the scan we had to wait for long time for the scan. After half an wait Its my turn. Dr asks is your bladder fulled. I say positive. I am highly tensed and nervous. While doctors assistant prepares for the scan, I am asked to lie down on the table.
The assistant lift my top and applies some cool gel. Then doctor takes the place. With the scan machine in hand. While she start moving it around my abdomen, I start shooting questions
ME: Dr can you see anything
Me: What can your see,
Dr: There is sac and small dot.
Me: Is there a baby? Can you see baby?
Dr: Yes Yes! I can this small white dot is the baby
Me: Smiles (then i hear some noise) All normal ?
Dr: Yes. we can hear the heart beat. Did you hear.
Me: No, was that noise heartbeat?
Dr: Wait I will show you.
Then I hear my baby’s heartbeat. A sign of life. A heart beating inside me.
I cant stop myself from crying. I cant explain my feelings in words. I just cant stop the water rolling down from my eyes.
Dr asks me to get up and wait for reports. With wet eyes I rushed to the washroom to calm myself down. After nearly 10mins I am able to control myself and come out . I come out and wait to show the reports to the doctor.
But it was very tough to control the emotion. I want to shout. talk to everyone close to me and express what I just heard in the scan room. I heard my baby. I have another heart beating within me. Another soul in me. I am loving this. More than anything
This is most precious in my life. My baby you are 6week 3 days old today. I have to wait another 34 weeks to see you. Till then I have to nourish you and take care of you while you are within. Love you my baby!! ❤