6th November 2018, Tuesday
I was damn excited to see what’s happening inside my abdominal area. To assure the belief that there is a live human developing inside my womb. It was a festive season. A day prior to Diwali, Chhoti Diwali.
We had been for scan on previous day as well but a male doctor was available in hospital. I wasnt aware of the fact that there would be a male doctor, neither is was informed to come with full bladder. USG scan was supposed to be done by a stick kind of a tool attached to a huge machine by rotating it over the lower abdomen. It is done on a full bladder (I was supposed to control my pee and store it in bladder before coming for scan) .
So, when the doctor started performing the test over the stomach, there was no clear image on screen. Then he suggested to get scan done internally. Internal scan is done by inserting something in the vagina. I was asked to change for that. But we were not comfortable with the male doctor, and decided to get scan done whenever we get a female doc.
Now I want to mention, further details of this jncident, so that everyone knows how some doctors nowadays want to steal money out of patient’s pocket and how rude mine was. Before the scan doctor asked “how do you know you are pregnant? ” ‘High level of BHCG can be an ectopic pregnancy some malignant tissue as well” He kept on saying that. He made us really scared. Moreover, when we refused for vaginal scan, male doctor said “if you are not ready, I will do the SCAN over the stomach only and give the as it is”(which was unclear). There was no point in getting unclear images, even he knew that. He just wanted us to get scan done by him and get his share of money.
I returned back hime and started aggressively searching for other diagnostic centres with female doctors. Unfortunately, all female doctors were on leave until Diwali was over. Suddenly I came across a centre where female doctor was available, but only in the evening time, next day. Next day we had Chhoti Diwali puja in the evening. The rituals take around an hour. Somehow I insisted at the centre to give us late appointment and they were nice to agree.
6th November, Tuesday Evening.
We performed Diwali puja. I was getting repeated calls from the diagnostic centre as we were getting late and doctor was waiting only to see me. We rushed as soon as the pooja was over. I was all excited, dressed up nicely in skirt and long Kurta, indo ethnic look.
After lots of paper formalities before USG, it was time for scan. Again Nothing was seen at over the stomach scan. I had to prepare myself for internal one. I thought it would pain, but once she started I was very comfortable and felt tickle inside.😂🙈
Finally the scan was clear. There was some black empty bag and inside which a white color cucumber shape (that’s how I explained 4yr old nephew) something. That one was Yolk sac. But no fetal pole. Radiologist said she cant see any baby. We got scared again. ‘Was the male doctor right? May I not be pregnant?’ I thought. I asked the same to doctor. To this Doctor asserted that high BHCG is 99% in pregnancy only. There are almost extremely rare chances ;close to nil for any disease or ectopic pregnancy. I was bit relieved. Doctor also mentioned that she could see some dot which might be the egg/ baby, but she cant affirm it.
I was worried but hoping for the best. It was an early scan only. Done at exactly 6 weeks of missed period. Sometimes baby is seen at 8 weeks also (as per information on internet.)
We showed the reports to doctor and even she said sometimes baby is seen later and suggested scan after 1 week.
I was bit relieved but desperate to see the LIFE INSIDE ME 🙂
A Life Inside Me 